OK, the old saying, "no news is good news" came out of my doctor's mouth when I was going thru my blood tests, my physical, mammagram, my pap smear, colon cancer test (the "poop" test), etc. Fine, I'm OK with that because in the last few years, he hasn't called back with test results. But, about a week after my blood test, the doc's office calls and says Doctor wants me to come in THE NEXT DAY for a blood test for my potassium. Asking why, the wonderful nurse tells me "for research". That's a new one.....so blood was taken again last week.
This morning at 11:43 CST, I got a call from the doctor's office. Hi, Dr. wants you to come in for a "follow-up" on your blood tests. Can you come in on Monday? (This is Wednesday, by the way). Sure, I say, cheerfully. After hanging up, the tears came, streaming down my face, no warning, no sobs, no nothing, just a flood of tears. Then it hit me (or actually, the brain kicked in, full force and like a runaway train): THIS IS NEWS ABOUT MY BLOOD TESTS. Which, according to the addage, must be BAD NEWS. So, now, I am sitting here typing away, my chest is so tight I can't get a breath, tears coming sporadically. And it's ONLY WEDNESDAY!
Now, dear people, I usually have the outlook of Pollyanna, trying to see the silver in the clouds, the rose in the colour of life.....but right now, I find it highly impossible to be reasonable and calm, logical or rational. All I want to do is call The Daughter (my youngest, Laura, Queen of the Universe, http://lauraqofu.blogspot.com/) RIGHT NOW and tell her, but I don't want to upset her or have her worry for days. I want ROBERT to call me NOW from his break at work. And I am sitting here pushing the minutes on the clock to a time that my Robert will call. And I can't make the clock go faster or make the phone ring. I can sit here and try to breathe instead, I guess.
So, this is Wednesday, counting today it won't be for another 5 days plus one sleep before I find out what is going on......and yes, it may just be something minor, but it's the No News is Good News thing I can't get over. Right now anyway. I'm scared shitless.......
